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Drift
Reality > Washington,
DC > Quarter Life Crisis
Wake
up, shower, shave, eat breakfast, go to work, go to class, come
home, eat dinner, watch TV, go to bed.
From
the moment I began to breath, I had a conviction that I would
be what I wanted.
That I didn't know what I wanted to be was irrelevant.
I
knew what I didn't want to be, and that was everyone else.
I wanted to be different, I wanted to be unique, I wanted to be...
Wake
up, shower, shave, eat breakfast, go to work, go to class, come
home, eat dinner, watch TV, masturbate, go to bed.
The
slightest hint of a breeze changes my dreams,
whether it's a book or a passing comment, in one hour I see myself
as a lawyer, doctor, and archeologist.
I
see a hundred ways outside of this cave but I don't see where
I'm supposed to take the first step in any direction except forwards
or backwards.
There is no circle of decisions, so all I can do is put my head
down and go.
Wake
up, shower, shave, eat breakfast, go to work, go to class, come
home, eat dinner, watch TV, have sex, go to bed.
I'm
23 going on 50 and the confidence I had when I was young is slipping
away,
I'm still walking in that same tunnel and I can start to see where
it ends, but it has nothing to do with where I thought it would
end when I started.
I've
had my head down for too long and now it's almost too late to
change my mind and go back.
What do I do - risk going back and waste all this time to find
out I'm not better off than before, or just put my head back down
and keep walking?
Wake
up, shower, shave, eat breakfast, go to work, go to class, come
home, eat dinner, watch TV, tuck the kids in, go to bed.
When
I was a little boy, I would always ask my parents' friends, "What
did you want to be when you were younger."
I'd shiver as I saw their eyes glaze over for a second, as if
they were remembering what it was like when there was still time
to wonder.
Now,
it seems like there is just time to wake up, shower, shave, eat
breakfast, go to work, go to class, come home, eat dinner, watch
TV, go to bed, and sleep.
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